blog #10
Monday
Dear Diary, my sister Laura had a conflict with mom today about her business college. Actually I think it was Laura’s fault since she hadn’t told Amanda that she quitted the school. Amanda must be so embarrassing in her school today; do you know how did the instructor describe Laura? She represented Laura as a “terribly shy little girl who dropped out of school after a few days’ attendance.” Because of that they fought for 2 hours and Amanda was mad at her for whole afternoon. Laura said she was walking around while she was not in school, but Amanda doubted and didn't believe it, because it quite does not make sense that she stayed in outside for whole time during school day. Anyway, Laura is quite different with other girl and her personality is insanely shy, so I believe her.
Tuesday
Today was pretty tough, and I had conflict with my mom today. Although Amanda knows that I love writing, and my dream is to be a writer, she never accepts it and realize me about the harsh life we have. She always yell “Rise and Shine”, but I am really tired of that now. I go work every each single day to get that sixty five dollars a month, and I even give up all my dreams to be a writer and adventure. I guess she never thinks about me, but only herself and poor sister. I know that her life is hopeless, and desperate, but so do I! I will just go out later to have some drinks; I need drink to release all my stress coming from family and especially Amanda.
Wednesday
After coming back to home at late night, Amanda asked me where have you been until now, and there was a fight between us again. I told her the truth that I went to movies, but she thought it’s whole lies. Amanda thought that I was going to some dangerous places, and hang out with bad kids. Even Laura seemed that she couldn't trust me. However, I said in really mean and rude way to my mom that time. I know I shouldn’t be like that, but she just made me so annoyed that time, because she never respected me and gave me so much pressure to take care of this whole family. I don't know whether should I say sorry or not.
Thursday
So today, I apologized to my mom. It wasn’t because I felt really sorry for my mom, but it was just because she would never talk to me if I didn’t say sorry first. However she seemed terribly mad at me since she said she worried to much that she couldn’t even sleep and made her anxious. So I promised to her that I would never become a drunkard, and control myself while drinking.
Friday
Dear diary,
Since my mother confessed to me that she has so many things to describe in her heart and she loved father, I also confessed her the reason of going to movies everyday. I told her that I am go to movies because I like adventure, which is something that I don’t have much of at work, and reality. Also Amanda talked about Laura to me today; it was about her husband. She said Laura has to get somebody to take care of her since she is young and independent, and she asked me to find anyone in warehouse to get married with Laura. Actually I quite didn’t want to do that, because I was already busy enough to work everyday; but it was thing related to my sister Laura, so I promised to mom that I will find anyone for Laura.
Saturday
Dear Diary,
Well, it’s a good news! I asked my warehouse friend James D.O’Connor to visit my home for the dinner, and he accepted. After telling my mom that Jim is coming tomorrow, she seemed even more excited and happy than Laura did. She asked every specific question about Jim, and she looked like she was fully prepared to serve him with good meals. Anyway, I am kind of worrying that normal men like Jim might would not like a girl like Laura. Because...she isn’t normal at all, and also terribly shy. She lives in her own world, and in a world of little glass animals.
Sunday
Dear Diary,
Today was the toughest day. Jim came home and everything seemed good. But when I came back to home, Amanda was really mad at me. Amanda said that Jim was engaged; but how could I know? Everything was started from Amanda’s ambition. After fighting with her for like an hour, I came out of home. And now, I am leaving this hopeless city Saint Louis. Finally I got my freedom, and there is a hope right in front of me. I will catch that hope, and reach my dream to be a writer. My new life has just started.
Dear Diary, my sister Laura had a conflict with mom today about her business college. Actually I think it was Laura’s fault since she hadn’t told Amanda that she quitted the school. Amanda must be so embarrassing in her school today; do you know how did the instructor describe Laura? She represented Laura as a “terribly shy little girl who dropped out of school after a few days’ attendance.” Because of that they fought for 2 hours and Amanda was mad at her for whole afternoon. Laura said she was walking around while she was not in school, but Amanda doubted and didn't believe it, because it quite does not make sense that she stayed in outside for whole time during school day. Anyway, Laura is quite different with other girl and her personality is insanely shy, so I believe her.
Tuesday
Today was pretty tough, and I had conflict with my mom today. Although Amanda knows that I love writing, and my dream is to be a writer, she never accepts it and realize me about the harsh life we have. She always yell “Rise and Shine”, but I am really tired of that now. I go work every each single day to get that sixty five dollars a month, and I even give up all my dreams to be a writer and adventure. I guess she never thinks about me, but only herself and poor sister. I know that her life is hopeless, and desperate, but so do I! I will just go out later to have some drinks; I need drink to release all my stress coming from family and especially Amanda.
Wednesday
After coming back to home at late night, Amanda asked me where have you been until now, and there was a fight between us again. I told her the truth that I went to movies, but she thought it’s whole lies. Amanda thought that I was going to some dangerous places, and hang out with bad kids. Even Laura seemed that she couldn't trust me. However, I said in really mean and rude way to my mom that time. I know I shouldn’t be like that, but she just made me so annoyed that time, because she never respected me and gave me so much pressure to take care of this whole family. I don't know whether should I say sorry or not.
Thursday
So today, I apologized to my mom. It wasn’t because I felt really sorry for my mom, but it was just because she would never talk to me if I didn’t say sorry first. However she seemed terribly mad at me since she said she worried to much that she couldn’t even sleep and made her anxious. So I promised to her that I would never become a drunkard, and control myself while drinking.
Friday
Dear diary,
Since my mother confessed to me that she has so many things to describe in her heart and she loved father, I also confessed her the reason of going to movies everyday. I told her that I am go to movies because I like adventure, which is something that I don’t have much of at work, and reality. Also Amanda talked about Laura to me today; it was about her husband. She said Laura has to get somebody to take care of her since she is young and independent, and she asked me to find anyone in warehouse to get married with Laura. Actually I quite didn’t want to do that, because I was already busy enough to work everyday; but it was thing related to my sister Laura, so I promised to mom that I will find anyone for Laura.
Saturday
Dear Diary,
Well, it’s a good news! I asked my warehouse friend James D.O’Connor to visit my home for the dinner, and he accepted. After telling my mom that Jim is coming tomorrow, she seemed even more excited and happy than Laura did. She asked every specific question about Jim, and she looked like she was fully prepared to serve him with good meals. Anyway, I am kind of worrying that normal men like Jim might would not like a girl like Laura. Because...she isn’t normal at all, and also terribly shy. She lives in her own world, and in a world of little glass animals.
Sunday
Dear Diary,
Today was the toughest day. Jim came home and everything seemed good. But when I came back to home, Amanda was really mad at me. Amanda said that Jim was engaged; but how could I know? Everything was started from Amanda’s ambition. After fighting with her for like an hour, I came out of home. And now, I am leaving this hopeless city Saint Louis. Finally I got my freedom, and there is a hope right in front of me. I will catch that hope, and reach my dream to be a writer. My new life has just started.
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